Thank you to everyone who has been supportive of me with this blog since I started it last year. Many of you have voiced your appreciation for posts that you've found helpful. It's been a really fun experience and a nice way to pay it forward as so many people have mentored me on my own path. The fact that FlightCaster got acquired halfway through my first year of blogging just made the whole thing easier. The acquisition gave me a credibility bump and empowered me with confidence. I generally find that my best posts (based on my feelings for them, not just reader counts) have a nice balance of me as a person and suggestions for other entrepreneurs. I have tremendous pride in what I do and I love doing it.
But I feel like a sham.
I'd like for this blog to be more honest, so I have a few things to share with you. I'm not nearly as proud of my actions at FlightCaster as I make myself out to be. To be 100% clear, I'm incredibly proud of my team, my cofounders, and all the awesomeness that we created together. Working with my best friend to create our dream was a pure honor and I'm fortunate to have been a part of it. But I'm not proud of how I did it, and I feel like I get more credit for our outcome than I deserve. Part of the reason for that credit is that I actively promote it myself. But inside, I know that I mostly just got lucky. And I got lucky in spite of myself. I'm sorry. This isn't coming out very well. Let me try to be more clear.
From day one, I feared failure and it affected every decision I made.
There, that's mostly what I wanted to say. I was not really a courageous founder; I mostly wanted to not fail. My first company failed and I ran out of money (both my company and me personally). When we started FlightCaster, I felt that I was lucky to get another opportunity at startup life. For the first few months, we worked our asses off and it was awesome. But soon, I started feeling stressed about the possibility of failure. With one failure under my belt, I felt that another failure would put an end to my startup dreams. By this time, we'd gotten into Y Combinator, one of the greatest startup handicaps ever created. If I couldn't succeed with YC's help, than I was truly incapable. My fear of failure caused me to make several stupid decisions. First, I built our team up too big, too quickly. Then, because I was so nervous about not having enough momentum, we built out our product faster than our customer development process dictated. Before launch, we'd created our flight delay prediction back-end with a working website, iPhone app, and Blackberry app. That's insane! Three front-ends before launch! Each with 1-2 people building it. And I know why I did all that. I was so fucking scared of failing to raise money post-Demo Day, that I felt like I needed to show we were further along than we really were. I'm incredibly proud of the investor crew we put together. But the truth is that, again, my fear drove my decision-making during the raise. We took on too much money, too early. Pretty much against everyone's advice, including that of our investors. And it was my call. If I'd had more confidence, we could have gone 6-12 months longer with a smaller team and on less money. We could have validated our product and built our company before giving up too much equity. But I equated 'not raising enough money' with 'failure.' I look at some of our batch-mates who waited a year after YC to raise money and they now have the foundations of really sustainable businesses. I'm so proud of them. Even our acquisition was driven by fear. We had another round of funding on the table, but I so wanted to call FlightCaster a win and didn't want to risk walking away with nothing. Yeah, we were stoked about the company that was acquiring us, and it looked like a good opportunity for us, for our employees, and for our investors. But I love working for myself. Was this what I really set out to do—to sell my company only two years after starting it? The truth, again, is yes. Everything I did with Flightcaster, I did consciously or unconsciously with an eye towards selling the company quickly, getting out, and getting my win.
Am I glad we sold? Absolutely. At the time, it was the best possible conclusion to a series of decisions that had led us there. But it's time for me to be more honest with all of you and to tell you that I'm going to do a better job next time. I'm not going to let my fear of failure drive my decisions next time around. If we fail, we fail. A startup failure won't affect how my family sees me, how my friends see me, or how my girlfriend sees me. And I'm never again going to let the possibility of failure affect how I see myself.
So, with all of that now said, I want to tell you that I'm starting a new company. It's called 42Floors. We're going to fix commercial real estate. For some reason, commercial real estate never adopted the internet. That will soon change. I'll have a lot more to say about the company in future posts but for now, just know that I'm giving it my all this time. I want to build a company that I can someday tell my children about. I have visited my grandfather's company, and I know what courage it took him to build it. I have dreams that my grandchildren will someday walk the halls of a company I created, and they'll be proud of the impact I made on the world.
I also plan to hold on to the truly honest posts like this one so that my children and grandchildren can know that I got scared too. The fact is, I'm still scared that I'm going to fail. I can't completely get rid of the feeling. I am simply choosing to no longer be bound by that fear. We may make it, we may not. But I'm determined to be more open and more courageous in the process.
I would love it if you'd help keep me honest. While I appreciate your support, I most appreciate the skeptics out there who push me to do better. From here out, please consider your 'unsolicited' advice...very much solicited and appreciated.
I thank you in advance.
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